Anxiety Attack

I'm a little uneasy these days, and hopefully it's nothing but the old familiar feeling of panic regarding exams and papers. This morning though I've been restless and shaky as well, and following that been doing some strange things like vacuum cleaning and dusting!

One of the odd things too, was that I wanted to listen to some music, but couldn't settle for anything really. Everything seemed wrong, and the music I wanted to listen to I didn't have. Then in the middle of my collection Rocky Horror Picture Show emerged, and I've been playing it all morning. Haven't listened to it for years now, but maybe I was reminded about it since I watched The Wall - Live in Berlin on DVD the other day (thank you for the loan, O!), and there Tim Curry sang in the role of the Prosecutor in "The Trial".

So while listening to Tim Curry, Susan Sarandon, Meatloaf and the rest I've been busy cleaning the house. Not meticulously, more at random I would say, but still, and I did find some surprises. Like under the pile of clutter on the table in the hallway. Nothing alarming, just a tablecloth that hasn't been visible for a while. And just that the color was red.

Talking about clutter. I guess I'm not the only one having too much of it, but sometimes we just stop seeing it. I've figured out that clutter must have a growth rate approximating that of a malignant bacteria population. And I guess the cure is the same. Keep the infected area clean!

I'm still a bit anxious, but at least my surroundings have improved. And now I probably should take a healthy walk in the woods, and get some fresh air... Love the woods, maybe I'll meet Pan...